My Guilt Free Sunday

Sunday morning is like breathing for the first time. I’m so not in the mood to see anyone or go anywhere outside of just going to church at our Noon service.

For me, I’m on “go” 6 days a week! And throughout my week I feel pulled in 100 different directions by people who have no desire to know how we’re doing. But that doesn’t seem to matter to most people. I am now realizing that there are those who want it all. To hang out, go places, come over and talk for hours and hours during my work weeks and all I can do is say “I can’t, I have to work!”. The truth is I AM ALWAYS WORKING! <screaming while I’m banging my head against the wall>
I work as an Insurance Adjuster from 12-9 PM. Most times I try to go in early and work a 10-7 shift but that can’t always happen when Ashon and I are dedicated to homeschooling our two youngest kids in the mornings.

I get so frustrated with people who try to make me feel bad for not reaching out to them. To be honest, most days, the thought of calling people never crosses my mind because I always assume they are just as busy as we are. So as a wife and a mother, my thought is going to always think the best and say a prayer for them as they’ve crossed my mind - and keep it moving!
Far too often, I’m put in a position right when I’m tending to my sick kid. Someone who feels that I should answer my phone each time they call. I feel stuck having to make a choice, “Do I answer this call or do I continue to give my child my undivided attention?” More than likely, I’m picking my child.

So when Sunday rolls around, I’m relaxing, turning my phone off, sleeping in, having alone time with my husband, cooking a FABULOUS dinner and spending time with my family. There are 6 days during my week that I am not able to do this so Sunday is OUR day.

Here’s a news flash:

not ignoring you

My prayer during this time is that God keeps the relationships/friendships that He’s purposed for us to have while Ashon and I go through this busy season. For us we are in a season of making huge sacrifices for our children. A lot of people don’t understand and some don’t want to - and that’s okay. But for those who do, thank you! We are not in a position to explain where we are right now.

rest

To be still and rest on Sunday is something I take very seriously. This is an intentional act! I don’t want to run out to the mall or go to the movies. I get an high on just resting. I was raised to be a busy body and most times I still am, but my husband is not. We’ve found a happy balance to making our Sunday’s our day of rest. It’s intended purpose was to stop being busy, not about resting in order to be more productive with work or other activities, it’s about focusing on God. With that I will never feel any guilt because I’ve declined an invitation to hang out.

Psalm 127:1-2

"Unless the Lord builds a house, the builders’ work is useless. Unless the Lord protects a city, sentries do no good. It is senseless for you to work so hard from early morning until late at night, fearing you will starve to death; for God wants his loved ones to get their proper rest."

Find what fills your heart, what energizes you and helps you find joy on your day of rest - a deeper connection with God. Once you find that, pursue it with passion and never apologize for it because it will change your life and God will bless you for it.

Let's Be Real For A Moment...

There is so much I want to say and to be honest, I don’t know where to begin. Do you ever feel like you’re doing so much to please everyone but yourself?

Disclaimer: This post is for my fellow Moms and/or Wives.

Guess what? I get tired.

No. I am tired.

Am I allowed to even admit that?!

Rarely do I read or hear about other Moms who really struggle. Let’s be real, I understand that we have to paint a picture of perfection.  I can’t, and I won’t. I struggle. Bad.

With all that is going on, I’m not a complainer. Just not in me. This is my life and even though I struggle from time to time, I wouldn’t trade my life with anyone else’s.

But today, I am struggling with hurt and change. I’m learning to lean on God more and more these days.  Learning to open up more, trust more and it’s not easy. Some may say that I’m difficult, but I say that I am just careful. I’m not afraid to say what I’m feeling. Now don’t confuse that with trusting my feelings. No, no and no! WE don’t do that!

2 Corinthians 10:5
“We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.”

Trusting God is a process. But it’s okay to admit when things aren’t well.  I say these things because I refuse to be victim of my circumstance!
How about you? How are you doing? I want you to be honest with yourself. Are you truly okay? What is the condition of your heart? Let's talk.