Yesterday morning, I woke in pain. I got out of bed, started to walk and my left leg gave out on me. I was shocked! I wasn't expecting it and didn't feel the pain until I took my first step. Ashon ran to my side to see if I was okay. I was but tried my best to put on the bravest face that I could. Ladies, you know how we do....LOL
You see, I'm not new to pain! I've struggled with pain for so long that I've become numb to it. It all stemmed from a car accident I had in early January of 2008. An accident that left me with permanent nerve and back damage. For 10 years, it has kept me from maintaining an active lifestyle. You see it's easy for one to look at me and assume that I'm just "lazy". I'm far from lazy. I maintain healthy eating habits and maintain moderate at-home workouts. But yesterday, I asked myself "Am I doing enough? Can I do more?" I began to cry because I know what it is that I do but I can't for the life of me figure out what I am doing wrong. More water? More walking? Should I just not eat at all? I am so frustrated!!!! Like seriously, I have no one I can confide in when it comes to this area of my life (outside of my husband). I came to a hard truth, saying to myself, "Kisha, You are as healthy as YOU want to be!" So I'm on a mission to answer all the questions that I have within myself. I feel that I tried everything that everyone else has told me to try but I don't feel that I've done what's in the best interest of my body and what I need specifically.
Healthy is a state of being. Not a size. It defines who you are inside. It doesn't define anyone else but you. Our health is something we as people have to deal with on our own. It requires strength and guidance from God.
Here are a few things that motivates me now more than ever for me to get this right;
1. To be a good witness.
2. My body is God's Temple for me to take care of.
3. It Glorifies God.
That's it. For those reasons alone, I can do this!! (*chanting* I am strong, I am smart, I am capable... Ha!) After we accept Jesus into our heart, God gives us His Spirit to help us live the kind of life He wants us to live. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 tells us that.
My plan of action is prayer and fasting. During this time I will start a 10-day cleanse filled with fruits and vegetables. Along with the cleanse, I will also detox my gallbladder and liver. This requires that I have no sugars, caffeine, starch, yeast, dairy or meats. The struggle!
This is how I must begin this journey, for me. My health will be more successful when I weed out all the bad and become more focused on the good.
Can we agree that we feel better when we infuse our bodies with things that are good? Can we also agree that a size 8 can be just as healthy as a size 18? Yes, I said it... because it's true! A size 8 is no better than a size 18!!
This is a journey to which I will strive for physical and spiritual health. I pray that I become more in tuned with the Father, deepening my relationship with God and serving Him ultimately. That is the goal.
Are you ready to join me on this Spiritual journey to complete restoration?